Makeover!

I’ve been spending a lot of time on lifestyle blogs that are inspirational, exciting, and downright awesome. They are so optimistic, cheery, wonderful! Here are a couple of particularly wonderful ones that I’ve been absorbing late into the night.

Yes and Yes– This girl is fantastic.

Not That Kind of Girl– She spent a year forcing her to do things that were completely out of character. Some of the posts are hilarious, and I am so inspired by how a self-proclaimed “painfully shy” girl could do some of those things.

Carrie Bradshaw In Reality-Simply amazing and true. When watching the show recently, I was trying to do the math in my head, and I came to the same conclusions.

Then I come back home to my blog, and ugh, it just looked depressing. I am so tired of brown and puke green. I spent the last eight months of my life living in a beige, brown, green, black apartment. No more! I am revamping it all. Lavender and purple bedspread on the way! I decided my blog could use a little bit of light as well.I know the posts haven’t been frequent, but I have been really busy rocking at life. Yeah, that’s right. Rocking.

The other day I was talking to my co-worker who went through a break-up right before she moved to NYC about nine months ago. She actually said to me, “I wish I had my life together like you do.” I laughed loudly and said, “ohmygodiamsolostanddon’tknowwhati’mdoing.” Which is the honest to God truth. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed, depressed and completely worthless. I feel like I’m so low that I will never pull it together. I literally feel like I have nothing, and I don’t know how to make it better. But I’m just carrying on and doing the best I can with what I have. Sometimes (like recently), I feel so energized and excited. All I can do is just surf that wave as long as I can and try to keep it going. Those waves come more frequently and last longer, but I definitely still crash on shore occasionally. But life at the moment is busy and exciting, I’m taking on writing projects, spending time with amazing people, and making big plans for myself.